In the photos above I was so tired I just wanted to give up and stop fighting but you can't. If you give up you risk being intubated or dying. This is the reality. So many people die from asthma attacks that come from triggers that are out with their control. It feels like you are being punished for something you didn't do. It is more than just the attack itself but the consequences that go with it - being off work, missing holidays, medication that causes side effects, family being so worried about you, family needing to look after you to name a few.